June 25th, 2007

new year

A lot of it going around

If you're maybe noticing that you're older than you used to be, and are feeling sad/angry/confused/worried/frustrated that you haven't accomplished as much as you/other people in your present or past/annoyingly critical voices inside your head think you should have, and if you're maybe feeling something like "I'm not a real grownup like everyone else," and if you're maybe also feeling sad/angry/confused/worried/frustrated that your body isn't working the way it used to, and you're maybe thinking, "if that's true then how am I going to DO all those accomplishments that I/other people/voices in my head think I ought or want to do?", and maybe you're also wondering how are you going to dig out from under the accumulation of habit and procrastination and self-doubt to some sense of satisfaction in your life again, then post this same sentence in your journal.

Got that from elisem

Some days as you know I eat that bear. As you know, I have some new recipes for that bear. At times I recall my youth when some part of me at times did feel the satisfaction of skinning the bear, although the skin is probably in a box somewhere waiting for me to finish making the teeshirt out of it.

Then other days I spend beating the computer at Monopoly only one in four tries.